If you've even visited this page in the past two years you'd have noticed that I haven't posted for quite some time. Why is that? Well, a couple of reasons, really. None of them involve me dying!

1) I've been buried with work, school, and now university (!!!) I haven't really had much time to draw outside of volunteering and studying, and now that I'm preparing to do a biotechnology major I'm probably not going to have much time for it at all. If I was drawing something for you at one point, sorry, but them's the breaks. Life gets in the way of things sometimes. Like, I would come home from school, do homework from 4PM to 10PM, eat dinner, work til 12PM, then sleep. Repeat for 1.5 years. Watch Cee's sanity slowly slide away!

Art is always going to be pretty near and dear to my heart and my biggest interest. I always sketch, try out new supplies, hunt for new artists, go to shows and galleries...but I have obligations and priorities now that I didn't when I first started my stint on dA at age 10-11 (I'm almost 18) and so now art is taking a backseat. I still do commissions though (since that is my only source of income...impossible to find a job right now).

2) I've lost interest in dA and the petty melodramatic bullshit of its users (not to mention the goddamn annoying new layouts!!). I don't really visit more than once a week, and that's to check notes since I still correspond with some people here. The atmosphere is a lot more offputting now than when it was when I first joined. It's like a horrible hybrid of Myspace and Livejournal except with pretentious art kids.

granted, there are still a ton of people on dA worth visitng and talking to. Probably the majority, really. These people want to improve. They accept helpful critiques, they try new techniques, they branch out and grow as artists. But they just kind of get eclipsed by...crap. I'm not talking about the quality of art, but the nature of the people who post it. The kind who have temper tantrums over helpful comments they perceive at 'attacks' or the kind who restrict themselves to one derivative style in order to attract hordes of fans, never diverging. There are egotistical assholes and lazy, uninspired people and drooling fans who lick up utter crap everywhere in the real world. No shit. But on an art site, it seems out of place. How the hell can anyone improve in that kind of environment?

I mean this sounds bitchy as all hell, but it's the truth, so...yeah.

3) I like ConceptArt and eatpoo better anyway. I'm not saying everyone has to be intensely driven and focused on improving their art, but I think it's stupid to even bother do art if you only stay in one place...both in terms of skill and in terms of content. Yes, I'm guilty of this one for sure, not denying it. But I don't think that dA's atmosphere is conducive to getting better at all...and at least, that's what I want to do. What is dA's atmosphere conducive to? I honestly have no idea, other than a lot of whining and asspatting.

4) This one is kinda petty (to the max heh) but I'm coming back to this account and looking over the really ridiculously stupid/asisine/immature shit that I said and did when I was actively using it. It's kind of embarrassing and I would punch my whiny pretentious pubescent self in the face really, really hard (but who can't say that about themselves and teenagers in general?). I'm still pretentious but at least now I know I am, isntead of thinking that I'm ~*~ EDGY AND UNIQUE ~*~

So...what am I trying to say? I don't know to be honest. It's just my explanation of why I haven't posted/will probably never post. Hasta la vista, comrades, it's been fun. Just kinda went to shit at the end, that's all.

EDIT: I think I'm just going to sign up at some crappy free host and keep my wn little online gallery. Check out [link] in the future!